From college and campus ministry, through seminary, and into parish ministry, I became increasingly aware of the damage done by some theologies within the church: specifically, the "Believe in Jesus or to go Hell" theologies. Knowing people who turned away from the church and from God because they'd been lambasted by such theologies, I decided to address those beliefs head on and look deeply at scripture, rather than simply ignore the tricky passages.
My goal was and is to bring healing to folks who have been harmed by those older, even foundational theologies, and to help free people from those theologies - people who don't believe in "believe in Jesus or go to Hell", but also don't know how they can't believe in them without ignoring much of scripture.
May you find peace and healing in the pages of this book, and may you help bring that healing to others.
The Rev. Brad Sullivan Lord of the Streets, Houston August 9, 2026 Proper 14, A 1 Kings 19:9-18 Psalm 85:8-13 Matthew 14:22-33
“Dude, if I called you out of the boat to take a stroll on the water with me, did you really think I was going to let you drown?” Ok, so that’s a bit snarkier than what Jesus said to Peter, but I think it really gets to the heart of the question, don’t you? Jesus had called Peter out of the boat in the middle of the sea to take a stroll on the water with him, and when Peter got afraid and began to drown, Jesus picked him up, put him in the boat and said, “You of little faith, why did you doubt?”
That’s actually a pretty good question. Why did Peter doubt? He saw Jesus, walking on the water. When Jesus called him out of the boat, Peter started out walking on the water just fine, but then he got afraid when he saw the wind and the waves. So, of course, Peter doubted because he was afraid. With fear of drowning foremost in his mind, I can imagine Peter having two questions. Could Jesus keep him walking on the water, and would Jesus keep him walking on the water. In other words, Peter was doubting Jesus’ ability and his good will.
Maybe that sounds familiar.
Sure, Jesus is powerful and all, but can he really help with this? I can see Peter wondering just how far Jesus’ powers extended. If a wave knocked Peter ten feet away from Jesus, would the floaty, water-walking awesomeness still reach him? Then there’s the question of Jesus’ intentions. What if Jesus was secretly angry with Peter and had only called him out of the boat to trick him? What if Jesus actually wanted him to drown and figured this way he could make it look like an accident?
That may sound nuts, and it is nuts, but Peter wouldn’t have been the first to question God’s power or good will. When the people of Israel were hungry and thirsty in the desert after God freed them from slavery in Egypt, they cried out, repeatedly in Exodus and Numbers, “What the heck, God? Did you bring us out of Egypt just so we could die in the wilderness?” The people were hungry and thirsty, so of course they began to doubt. Could God bring them food and water in the desert? Would God bring them food and water in the desert? Spoiler, but God did.
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So, as much as some may like to dis Peter a little bit for his lack of faith, he was in pretty good company in questioning the power of Jesus and the good will of Jesus. Truth be told, Peter was in pretty good company with all of humanity in being afraid and wondering, “Is this really gonna work?” Of course, Peter was afraid. He was walking on top of the water in the middle of a stormy sea. If he hadn't been afraid, he would have been in a coma. I don’t care how much faith he had, his fear response was going to take over. There’s no shame in that.
We all have a fear response. For some of us, it’s kinda mild, and for some of us, our fear response is huge. Now, that’s supposed to be a good thing, protecting us from actual threats, but we often become afraid over things that feel like threats or remind us of threats, even if we’re not really in danger. Just the wrong thing will hit, past trauma will get triggered, and the fear response takes over. So, we get afraid, sometimes very afraid, and once that fear takes over, we may just start to sink. Even if we have great faith, we may start to sink when fear hijacks our brains.
There’s no shame in that, and the fact that fear takes over doesn’t mean we don’t believe well enough. No matter how well we believe, that fear response may hijack our brains, and we may begin to sink. That’s ok. It happens. So, when it happens, when we’re overcome with fear and we begin to sink, Peter has shown us what to do. Turn our fear over to Jesus and ask for his help. Trust in Jesus and allow our fears and doubts to quiet down so that love, hope, and faith can lead us.
Now, that doesn’t mean everything is always going to turn out great, if only we trust in Jesus enough. Jesus did tell us that even if we have great faith, bad things may still happen to us. People are still people, the world is still the world, and no matter how faithful we are, life’s slings and arrows may still hit us.
The work of the church is to continue in the ministry and mission Jesus has for us, even when we are hit by life’s slings and arrows. We are to offer our fears to Jesus, trust in the mission and ministry Jesus has for the church, and remember Jesus’ message, “Dude, if I call you out of the boat, do you really think I’m going to let you drown?”
In our life at Lord of the Streets, Jesus has given us a mission, and our mission is to relieve suffering and reveal dignity by rebuilding lives through ministries and relationships with people facing homelessness. That’s how Lord of the Streets lives out Jesus’ mission of love, hope, and faith: relieve suffering and reveal dignity by rebuilding lives through ministries and relationships with people facing homelessness.
That’s the mission for everyone who chooses to be a member of Lord of the Streets (and for everyone who chooses to be a partner and supporter of Lord of the Streets). So, for everyone here, that’s all of our mission if we choose for it to be. We help one another out, we build relationships together, healthy relationships where we support each other and build each other up in love.
I was talking to a member last week. He was homeless and now has a place to live near here, and unfortunately, there’s a lot of drugs where he lives and not a lot of love, hope, and faith. So, I suggested that he start offering some of that love, hope, and faith. Invite some neighbors to meet together, pray together, have fellowship together in ways that don’t involve drugs. Ask Jesus to let that grow and bring love, hope, and faith to his apartment building and drive out the drugs and despair.
The man I was talking to hasn’t stepped out of the boat on this one yet. That’s ok, it’s a fearful prospect. Jesus’ message to him is, “Dude, if I call you out of the boat, do you really think I’m going to let you drown?” If he does begin gathering a community of love, hope, and faith to drive out the drugs and despair, I really don’t think Jesus intends for that to fail.
I’m having to listen to that same message right now as well, “Dude, if I call you out of the boat, do you really think I’m going to let you drown?” We’re in the midst of renovating our building at Lord of the Streets, and at the same time, our A/C went out. This is all happening as we’re working to expand our ministries to help folks get off the streets and stay housed. We’re working to build greater community of love, hope, and faith at Lord of the Streets, so that community can spread, so that folks do get housed, like the man I mentioned earlier, they can continue to build greater love, hope, and faith wherever they are.
Well, with all the crud going on with our building and the A/C going out right as this is starting to begin, I’m seeing a lot of wind and waves, and it’s hard not to get afraid and start to sink. So, what I’m trying to do is listen to Jesus’ message, “Dude, if I call you out of the boat, do you really think I’m going to let you drown?”
What I’m trying to do is believe that Jesus has this ministry for Lord of the Streets, and even though things are a pain in the tail right now, it’s gonna get better. We’re gonna get through this, and we’re going to have this ministry of connection and relationships. We’re going to have this ministry of being able to join together, and grow together, and support one another together, and not only get housed but stay housed and have these communities of love, hope, and faith so the church continues to spread, not only in our building, but in all the buildings where we end up living.
So, what do we do with our fear of drowning in the meantime?
Well, we keep on praying. We keep on, every day, saying, “Lord, grant me love, and hope, and faith. Guide me. Guide us. Guide your church into the mission and ministry you have for us at Lord of the Streets.
Then, when we do get knocked down by the slings and arrows of life, because we will, we continue to trust that even though resistance happens, Jesus’ mission ain’t gonna fail. What did Jesus say? “The gates of hell will not prevail against it.” Any one of us may get knocked down. Any one of us may get hurt, but we’re a part of something bigger than ourselves. We’re a part of Jesus’ mission of love, and hope, and faith, and nothing is going to stand against that, as we live that out together, and step out of the boat, and listen to Jesus’ words. “Dude, if I call you out of the boat to walk on the water with me, I ain’t gonna let you drown.”
The Rev. Brad Sullivan Lord of the Streets, Houston August 2, 2026 Proper 13, A Isaiah 55:1-5 Psalm 145: 8-9, 15-22 Matthew 14:13-21
Last week, I saw something really awful and disturbing. There were several of us talking together, three women, another man, and I. After a while, the other man had to go, and he said, “hugs all around.” He hugged each of the older women and me with a quick, friendly hug, and then he got to the third woman, who was younger, and the man obviously found her attractive. When he hugged her, she was trying for the side hug, not really knowing this person, and instead, he pulled her close, squeezing her body to his, rubbing her back, basically groping her with his body. She finally was able to push him away, and he left, looking very satisfied with himself.
It was disgusting.
He felt good pulling her body against his. He probably felt like a man, except those weren’t the actions of a man, not a real man. Those weren’t even the actions of a little boy. Those were the actions of, I don’t know what, someone who has lost part of his humanity. He didn’t see this young woman as a person; he didn’t treat her as a person. He just saw her and treated her like a piece of meat, a play thing that he used just to get hard.
That’s the same attitude towards women as rape, using a woman’s body just to get hard, to feel good, to get your rocks off. I get that a hug is not the same as rape, but the difference is a matter of degree. The man who did this saw and treated this woman as a plaything for his physical enjoyment. Her humanity didn’t matter, and even though it was only a hug, that’s a huge problem, that her humanity didn’t matter.
What do we often hear in defending the humanity of women? “That’s someone’s sister or daughter.” That’s a problem. Who care’s whose daughter or she is? She is a woman, a human being in her own right. She has eternal value and worth all of her very own. See, if her value only matters because she is someone else’s daughter or sister, then she has no value of her own. Well, if she has no value of her own, then it’s that much easier for guys to do whatever they want.
Look at the woman in John 8, whom people were trying to murder because she was caught in the act of adultery. What about the guy? They were all fine murdering the woman whose worth only counted as someone else’s, while the man, yeah, he got off scot-free.
If we don’t truly value every human being as having eternal value all on their own, then we’re going to continue raping and killing each other just so we can feel better, or we’re going to do things like full-body groping people just to feel a little juiced, a little sexed up.
We’re going to continue to be disgusting with one another, if we don’t truly accept and believe that every single human being ever has eternal value all on their own.
I do mean “we” are going to continue to be disgusting with one another, because it wasn’t just this one guy devaluing and groping this one woman. What he did, we all do in various ways with one another. I’d guess most every guy in this room has at some point devalued a woman and seen her just as an object of lust. I’d guess a lot of the guys in this room have held on just a little bit long, wanting to feel the woman’s body against theirs, whether the woman wanted that or not.
Disgusting behavior is, of course, not only something men do. Women also can see men as just pieces of meat, and everybody can treat others terribly. Every one of us has at some point devalued another person and treated them just as some thing, whether as an annoying thing or as an object of some kind of desire or way to get what we want. We use one another in a thousand different ways. We lie to one another. We cheat and steal from one another. We hurt one another, all in order to feel better in some way or to get something we desire. In all of these ways, we treat people as things, not as beloved human beings with eternal value.
In this way, we fill our lives with the hurt of others. We feed off of each other’s hurt. It doesn’t really help us, not for very long. The guy with the disgusting, groping hug felt better for a couple seconds, but he had just caused harm to someone else and hadn’t done anything to truly feed his soul.
“Why do you spend your money for that which is not bread, and your labor for that which does not satisfy?” Isaiah asks. “Listen carefully to me, and eat what is good, and delight yourselves in rich food. Incline your ear, and come to me; listen, so that you may live.”
Of course, the food Isaiah is talking about is fulfilling the covenant that the people of Israel had with God. Stop chasing after foreign gods. Stop cheating one another and using one another just to get what you want. That is all food that does not satisfy. Instead, Isaiah was reminding the people to love God to love one another, to eat the food which does satisfy by following the ways of life that God had given them.
We talked about this during Bible study last Thursday, looking at the kind of spiritual food we eat. There is the food which does not satisfy, things like sexual immorality which I’ve mentioned a lot today; there is also the unsatisfying food of anger, jealousy, fighting, drunkenness and drug use, unforgiveness, and so many more things like that. Boy, those things sure taste good at first, but we are left feeling bad, wanting ever more just to keep feeling worse.
The fruit of the Spirit, on the other hand, is the food which does satisfy: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. These are all good, rich foods which will sustain and heal us. Like most good food, it requires some work actually to eat the fruits of the Spirit.
See, the food which doesn’t satisfy, the anger and lust and all that requires no effort. If we just go through our day and wait long enough, something is going to make us angry, or lustful, or whatever else. It’s like eating a bag of chips: easy, fast; you tear it open and chow down.
The fruit of the Spirit is like good food which requires some time to prepare, like cooking a good meal. Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. We work at these things. Being led by the Spirit, eating the fruits of the Spirit means putting in the work to cultivate and prepare that good food.
If we’re angry and want love, joy, and peace, then we need to take the time to offer our anger to God. We need to trust that any vengeance that needs to be taken will be taken by God, rather than trusting our own hand for vengeance. Time in prayer, time learning rules of a way of life that God has taught, and time practicing that way of life that God has taught, that’s some of the preparation needed to be guided by the Spirit.
Treating people as full human beings with eternal value takes work. Taking a full-body, groping hug from someone, doing whatever we want to one another to get hard and feel good, that takes no work at all. We just have to let our base, animal desires take over and lose a bit of our humanity. Then we can eat all of that spiritual junk food we want, losing more and more of our humanity with every bite, or we can do the work needed to be real men and real women. We can do the work needed to be led by the Spirit and eat the fruit of the Spirit. We can gain more of our humanity and be healed with every bite. Choosing a life of Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control, we can eat food which does satisfy and spend our lives on the true bread which comes from heaven, Jesus our Lord.
The Rev. Brad Sullivan Lord of the Streets, Houston August 2, 2026 Proper 13, A Isaiah 55:1-5 Psalm 145: 8-9, 15-22 Matthew 14:13-21
Last week, I saw something really awful and disturbing. There were several of us talking together, three women, another man, and I. After a while, the other man had to go, and he said, “hugs all around.” He hugged each of the older women and me with a quick, friendly hug, and then he got to the third woman, who was younger, and the man obviously found her attractive. When he hugged her, she was trying for the side hug, not really knowing this person, and instead, he pulled her close, squeezing her body to his, rubbing her back, basically groping her with his body. She finally was able to push him away, and he left, looking very satisfied with himself.
It was disgusting.
He felt good pulling her body against his. He probably felt like a man, except those weren’t the actions of a man, not a real man. Those weren’t even the actions of a little boy. Those were the actions of, I don’t know what, someone who has lost part of his humanity. He didn’t see this young woman as a person; he didn’t treat her as a person. He just saw her and treated her like a piece of meat, a play thing that he used just to get hard.
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That’s the same attitude towards women as rape, using a woman’s body just to get hard, to feel good, to get your rocks off. I get that a hug is not the same as rape, but the difference is a matter of degree. The man who did this saw and treated this woman as a plaything for his physical enjoyment. Her humanity didn’t matter, and even though it was only a hug, that’s a huge problem, that her humanity didn’t matter.
What do we often hear in defending the humanity of women? “That’s someone’s sister or daughter.” That’s a problem. Who care’s whose daughter or she is? She is a woman, a human being in her own right. She has eternal value and worth all of her very own. See, if her value only matters because she is someone else’s daughter or sister, then she has no value of her own. Well, if she has no value of her own, then it’s that much easier for guys to do whatever they want.
Look at the woman in John 8, whom people were trying to murder because she was caught in the act of adultery. What about the guy? They were all fine murdering the woman whose worth only counted as someone else’s, while the man, yeah, he got off scot-free.
If we don’t truly value every human being as having eternal value all on their own, then we’re going to continue raping and killing each other just so we can feel better, or we’re going to do things like full-body groping people just to feel a little juiced, a little sexed up.
We’re going to continue to be disgusting with one another, if we don’t truly accept and believe that every single human being ever has eternal value all on their own.
I do mean “we” are going to continue to be disgusting with one another, because it wasn’t just this one guy devaluing and groping this one woman. What he did, we all do in various ways with one another. I’d guess most every guy in this room has at some point devalued a woman and seen her just as an object of lust. I’d guess a lot of the guys in this room have held on just a little bit long, wanting to feel the woman’s body against theirs, whether the woman wanted that or not.
Disgusting behavior is, of course, not only something men do. Women also can see men as just pieces of meat, and everybody can treat others terribly. Every one of us has at some point devalued another person and treated them just as some thing, whether as an annoying thing or as an object of some kind of desire or way to get what we want. We use one another in a thousand different ways. We lie to one another. We cheat and steal from one another. We hurt one another, all in order to feel better in some way or to get something we desire. In all of these ways, we treat people as things, not as beloved human beings with eternal value.
In this way, we fill our lives with the hurt of others. We feed off of each other’s hurt. It doesn’t really help us, not for very long. The guy with the disgusting, groping hug felt better for a couple seconds, but he had just caused harm to someone else and hadn’t done anything to truly feed his soul.
“Why do you spend your money for that which is not bread, and your labor for that which does not satisfy?” Isaiah asks. “Listen carefully to me, and eat what is good, and delight yourselves in rich food. Incline your ear, and come to me; listen, so that you may live.”
Of course, the food Isaiah is talking about is fulfilling the covenant that the people of Israel had with God. Stop chasing after foreign gods. Stop cheating one another and using one another just to get what you want. That is all food that does not satisfy. Instead, Isaiah was reminding the people to love God to love one another, to eat the food which does satisfy by following the ways of life that God had given them.
We talked about this during Bible study last Thursday, looking at the kind of spiritual food we eat. There is the food which does not satisfy, things like sexual immorality which I’ve mentioned a lot today; there is also the unsatisfying food of anger, jealousy, fighting, drunkenness and drug use, unforgiveness, and so many more things like that. Boy, those things sure taste good at first, but we are left feeling bad, wanting ever more just to keep feeling worse.
The fruit of the Spirit, on the other hand, is the food which does satisfy: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. These are all good, rich foods which will sustain and heal us. Like most good food, it requires some work actually to eat the fruits of the Spirit.
See, the food which doesn’t satisfy, the anger and lust and all that requires no effort. If we just go through our day and wait long enough, something is going to make us angry, or lustful, or whatever else. It’s like eating a bag of chips: easy, fast; you tear it open and chow down.
The fruit of the Spirit is like good food which requires some time to prepare, like cooking a good meal. Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. We work at these things. Being led by the Spirit, eating the fruits of the Spirit means putting in the work to cultivate and prepare that good food.
If we’re angry and want love, joy, and peace, then we need to take the time to offer our anger to God. We need to trust that any vengeance that needs to be taken will be taken by God, rather than trusting our own hand for vengeance. Time in prayer, time learning rules of a way of life that God has taught, and time practicing that way of life that God has taught, that’s some of the preparation needed to be guided by the Spirit.
Treating people as full human beings with eternal value takes work. Taking a full-body, groping hug from someone, doing whatever we want to one another to get hard and feel good, that takes no work at all. We just have to let our base, animal desires take over and lose a bit of our humanity. Then we can eat all of that spiritual junk food we want, losing more and more of our humanity with every bite, or we can do the work needed to be real men and real women. We can do the work needed to be led by the Spirit and eat the fruit of the Spirit. We can gain more of our humanity and be healed with every bite. Choosing a life of Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control, we can eat food which does satisfy and spend our lives on the true bread which comes from heaven, Jesus our Lord.
