Jesus Has United to That Pain Too

The Rev. Brad Sullivan
Lord of the Streets, Houston
April 18, 2025
Good Friday, C
Isaiah 52:13-53:12
Psalm 22
John 18:1-19:42

So, if I were to say, “Cry Night,” does anyone know what in the world I’m talking about? I’m guessing not. See, Cry Night is a term (not coined by me) that is used to describe the last night of many a youth trip or retreat. 

Cry night is where you’re on a youth trip, and at the end of the trip, when everyone is exhausted and worn out, you talk with the kids about Jesus and how Jesus took their sins upon himself, and you pull every emotionally manipulative trick you have in order to get the kids to really feel their culpability in Jesus’ death so they will then feel gratitude and love for Jesus. 

Cry Night. It’s great. I don’t really do Cry Night, and I’m guessing most folks here don’t, but it has been a part of quite a few youth trips I’ve been on. It’s a bit much.

I suppose our liturgy does something similar, as we go through the last days and minutes of Jesus’ life, there is an emotional pull to our liturgy. Heck, one of my favorite hymns, “Ah Holy Jesus,” is very emotional, even having the line, “I crucified thee.”

So, I suppose I’m not against emotional appeals to our culpability in Jesus’ death. I suppose my challenge is really the potential theology behind such emotional appeals. 

In my experience, your typical Cry Night theology tends to be that we are all terrible sinners from birth, and we were all of us justly destined to an eternity of torment, God’s just punishment for our sins. Because Jesus loves us, however, he took the penalty upon himself, suffering all of the torment we should suffer so that we don’t have to. So now, realizing that, look upon the one you made suffer. Look at what you did to him.

Feel bad because of what you did. Now, love Jesus because of what he did. 

Ok, that’s fine. There’s some truth there, but that story, by itself, with the emotional manipulation, can also be a bit harmful when some folks get overwhelmed by the guilt and the horror of what “they’ve” done. 

“I had no idea I was so awful. I mean, I knew I’ve  messed up, but I didn’t think I was that terrible.” 

“Oh, you are, and worse even, but Jesus loves you, and you’re forgiven.” 

“Ok, great that I’m forgiven, but now I hate myself.”

The story of Jesus’ passion and death, and the meaning of what his passion and death were, are only partially understood with the idea that Jesus took the penalty of our sins upon himself, and the story is perhaps misunderstood with the idea that God was going to torture us all for eternity until he realized, “Oh, maybe I’ll do the Jesus thing instead.”

See, the problem with those stories is, they forget who Jesus is. Jesus is the Word of God which spoke creation into existence. Jesus is the Word of God which is God. So, when we say, “Jesus did this,” what we’re saying is, “God did this.” God took the penalty for our sins upon Godself.

What is the penalty? In a word, the penalty is isolation. We are harmed, and we pull away. We cause harm, and others pull away, and we pull away even further. Isolation, the hells we make for ourselves because we are not united to others, or we feel and fear that we aren’t united to others. That’s simply part of what it is to be human. 

So, when we say, Jesus took the penalty of our sins upon himself, we mean that even when we experience that penalty, we aren’t truly alone. Nothing can separate us from God, not even our separation from God. 

God became human, and as that human being, Jesus of Nazareth, God united fully with humanity. On the cross, God united even with our sins and the penalty for our sins. God united with our disunity. God united with the pain and misery that disunity causes us. God united with all of the hells we put ourselves in, all the hells we put ourselves through. 

Then, finally, God united even with our death, as Jesus said, “It is finished,” and breathed his last. “It is finished.” There is no more separation from God. Our separation from God has been united to God even in our death.

Why? Because God sees us hurting and alone, and God knows we need healing. 

So yes, Jesus took our sins and the penalty of our sins upon himself on the cross, and he did so because he was God, uniting with all of our lives. 

With that in mind, let’s steer away from, “Look at what you did to Jesus.” God chose that death on the cross, because God sees all that we go through, and God wants healing for us, and God knows that unity with God in every aspect of our lives, unity with God and one another is how we are healed. 

So, when we say, Jesus took our pain upon the cross, see your pain there, and see that Jesus has united himself to your pain. When we say, Jesus took our pain upon the cross, see the pain you’ve caused others; see that Jesus has united that pain to himself as well. When we say, Jesus took our pain upon the cross, see the pain of others that in your indifference, you haven’t done a whole lot to heal; see that Jesus has united that pain to himself as well. 

When you look at the cross, see all of our pain, everyone’s pain; see that is has been united to God by Jesus. Then, ask yourself, what am I going to do about it? How am I going to live? 

Not to get too emotionally appealy, not to get to a Cry Night level, but might we trust that Jesus has our pain united to God, and therefore, might could we spend a little less time constantly trying to soothe our pain, and our fears, and our worries? Instead, might we be able to strive to soothe other peoples’ pain, trusting that all that we are is already fully united with God. Might we trust Jesus’ healing for ourselves enough that we could live that healing for others?

Might each of us give up some of the ways we self-soothe and spend some of that time and money in the service of others? Not to get too far ahead of ourselves, Easter isn’t for a couple days yet, but when we spend some of our time and money in the service of others, rumor has it that we might just see Jesus on the way.

Love Is Our Identity

The Rev. Brad Sullivan
Lord of the Streets
January 7, 2024
1^st after Epiphany, Year B
Genesis 1:1-5
Psalm 29
Mark 1:4-11

Yesterday was the Epiphany, the day when we celebrate the coming of the Magi to visit Jesus. We call it the Epiphany because it was an “Aha” moment. These gentiles had somehow heard that Jesus had been born. They’d somehow heard that Jesus was to be king of the Jews. They visited with Jesus, with Mary and Joseph, and they bowed down before Jesus. The “Aha” moment was the first revelation of Jesus to the gentiles. Decades before Jesus began his ministry, these gentile Magi came to see that there was something special about this child named Jesus.

Now, today, on this first Sunday after the Epiphany, we have another “Aha” moment with Jesus’ baptism. Right after he was baptized, the heavens were opened, God’s voice called Jesus his beloved Son, and the Holy Spirit descended on Jesus like a dove. This was a revealing Jesus’ identity, of who Jesus was and is.

Last Sunday we heard about Jesus’ identity, that his identity was revealed in John’s gospel as the Word of God, which is God. Jesus’ identity is God who became human to live as one of us. By becoming human, God connected with us completely in every aspect of our lives. We are one with God, even when we hurt ourselves and one another. Even when we disconnect from one another and from God, God has already joined Godself to that disconnection, so nothing can separate us from God, not even our sin.

That’s called Incarnational Atonement. Our salvation is our unity with God, and that unity has come in Jesus.

Part of Jesus’ unity with us was that he was baptized by John. John’s baptism was a baptism of repentance for the forgiveness of sins, and Jesus joined with all of the people coming out to be baptized. The “Aha” moment in Jesus’ baptism is hearing that Jesus’ is God’s beloved Son. Now, when Jesus was baptized, he was already God’s son. As we know from John’s gospel, Jesus was God from before all time and forever. So, his baptism by John the Baptist didn’t make him God’s beloved son. Jesus’ baptism revealed him as God’s beloved Son.

One question is, to whom was that revelation made? Who exactly got the “Aha” moment? Did Jesus? Did he already know who he was? People were coming to John confessing their sins. Did Jesus do the same? Did he think he needed a baptism of repentance for forgiveness? Did he know that he was the one whom John was proclaiming? Perhaps Jesus’ identity as God was revealed to him as well. He was, after all, human, having to learn and grow as he went.

So, maybe Jesus’ identity was revealed even to Jesus. We’re not exactly sure, but we are fairly sure that no one else knew that Jesus was God, and we know that because almost nothing was mentioned about his life between his birth and his baptism. For about 30 years, Jesus was just some carpenter’s kids from the sparrow-fart town of Nazareth. He was a nobody, just a regular bloke. It’s as this nobody, regular bloke that God chose to unite with us.  

For us, then, being united to God doesn’t take anyone special. No fancy collar or clothes, no degrees, no training, no particular holiness. Being united to God simply takes being. In the Incarnation, Jesus has united all of us to God for the simple fact that we are people.

As Jesus’ identity was revealed in Baptism, so is our identity revealed in Baptism. At the end of each baptism, we say, “You are sealed by the Holy Spirit in baptism and marked as Christ’s own forever.” That sentence reveals a truth that was already there. Just as Jesus’ baptism gave an “Aha” moment, revealing who Jesus is, so do our baptisms give an “Aha” moment, revealing who we are.

We are one with Christ. We are one with God. We are God’s beloved children. In baptism, we are revealed as Christ’s own forever. We already are Christ’s own. We always have been. Baptism reveals that truth.

Looking at some more of what Baptism reveals about us, think on our Genesis reading. “In the beginning… God said, “Let there be light”; and there was light. And God saw that the light was good.” Everything God made is good, and everything God made is made in the light.

Now, again, from John’s gospel, we know that Jesus is the Word of God which spoke creation into existence. Also, in the Word of God “was life, and the life was the light of all people.” The very life of God, which is light for all people, is the life in which we were made. We were made in the life and light of God, and we were made in God’s image. We have the life and light of God within us, as part of us.

That too is revealed in our baptism. We are part of the life and light of God. So is everyone around us, all part of the life and light of God. Whether baptized or not, all of us are part of the life and light of God. Baptism reveals that truth of our identity.

Remembering from 1 John that “God is love,” we see another part of our identity revealed in Baptism. Julian of Norwich wrote, “Everything exists through the love of God,” and “With creation we started but the love with which he created us was in Him from the very beginning and in this love is our beginning.” (Revelations of Divine Love, Julian of Norwich)

Love is our identity, as is being God’s beloved children, as is our unity with God. There’s nothing special we need to do or be to make this identity happen. Just as Jesus’ identity was revealed to him in his baptism, so is our identity revealed to us in our baptisms.

We are made of the love of God, and love is our identity. There needn’t be anything special about us for this to be true. In his earthly life, Jesus was just a regular bloke, so as regular folks ourselves, we are part of the light and life of God. We are fully one with God because God became human, uniting Godself to us. In that unity with God, we find our identity, God’s beloved children, all of us and everyone we’ll ever meet, God’s beloved children.